Volver

Please do not take my lack of posts as a signal that I am either deceased or a vegetable.

I work two jobs, yo. Well, as of tomorrow, I will be working zero.

Why?

I was accepted into Chapman University back in April. That’s right folks, I will be leaving my $1600 a month job(s) in order to further throw myself into the depths of collegiate depth. It’s a bit more important than money, to be honest. I want to go back to school. I want to be back in the cinematic atmosphere, full of collaboration with creative souls. Sometimes, it’s worth the financial sacrifice to become a better person. I feel that earning money with no sense of passion is the worst fate a human can suffer. Our parent’s generation inundated their children with this sense of duty; exchanging personal passions for a paycheck in order to put food on the table was the norm. I cannot neglect my dreams.

I did for two years. I made money. I hated it. I was constantly grumpy and unsatisfied. My mood swings were rampant. I felt like bi-polar maniac.

No longer. I have empowered myself to pursue my filmmaking career. I will be traveling from the humid armpit of America to the bankrupt Golden State, embracing the dry, temperate climate over a weatherman’s nightmare. With my lady and her two cats in tow, we shall enter the world of health food and Hollywood.

I do not regret a thing.

Stinky Fish Thrills!

I recommend to anyone interested in exploring other cultures to visit your nearest Asian grocery store.

Jenny and I ventured to one near the River Market today.  As soon as you walk in, your nostrils sting with odoriferous excitment:  Fresh fish, meats, rice, spices…OH MY!  There was an entire different world of foods that I wouldn’t have imagined.  Black sesame cereal and candy.  Lychee fruit soaked in syrup.  Canned limpet, frozen pig heads, live crabs, large squids, octopus…it was a cornacopia of interest.  It’s like visiting a museum of oddities, except you take home the exhibits and eat them.

One interesting find was a durian.  This infamous fruit with its spikey surface is well known for its awful stench, yet amazing taste.  If I were a bit more daring, I would have purchased one.

GET CULTURED!

To dream…perchance to live.

I graduated college in May of 2007.
Let’s look at what I’ve done since:

I work at a grocery store.  I work at a coffee house.

And on the plus side, I’ve met a wonderful woman and applied to graduate school.

It depresses me that financial burdens occupy my life.  Bills, bills, bills.  What did I want to do after college?  Make films all over the country.  Write some more.  Read a few books.  Watch a ton of movies.  In the two years since graduation, I feel out of sync.  For the first time today, I realized that every day feels nearly identical to the previous one.  Last Monday seems as recent as this Monday.  Everything is running together on some sort of maligned circle of life.

Are we, as humans, allowed to sidetrack?  Derail our forlorn path laid ahead?

I surely do hope I get into Chapman.  It is ok to dream, to pursue that dream, and live that dream.  Anyone who is satisfied with mediocrity is living in dread.

Let’s move on.  It’s time.

/endrant